I'm a what? A real MOM!

There are moments during the day that I honestly have to stop and remind myself, Amy, you're a mom.  You really are one!  I have wanted to be a mom since I could remember.  I always had a baby doll, a stroller, carriage, baby bag, my sister and I would even make pretend baby food.  I always thought I would get married and have a baby when I was 21.  Not sure why I chose 21, but I did.  Obviously that didn't go to plan since I went to college, got a job and then married.  Just wasn't ready for it at 21 like I always had thought.  Then, it took us a while to actually get pregnant and that absolutely terrified me.  How could I want something so bad all my life and struggle to get it, but people who don't even want to have a baby can make one in one night by accident?  I still struggle with that one every once in a while-I will now move on since our prayers were answered!;)

Now, that I am one it's the hardest flipping job out there, but lord almighty it is the best one around.  When this little girl looks up at me with that beautiful smile, the smile that I had dreamt about when I was pregnant with her, it absolutely melts me.  Melts me to my core.  All is well with the world when I see that stinkin' smile:)

Moments that remind me I'm a mom:

Holding her when she is sick or hurt.  All she wants is her mom.  That's me!  I am hers, all hers.

Walking into my in laws house today when my mother in law asks, "Piper who is that?"  And her response, "MAMA!!"  Ah, be still my heart.

Having my morning coffee on the weekends and hearing her feet running around upstairs, yelling at the dog and then peeking around the corner with her sweet squeaky voice saying, "Hewwooo".

Sitting at the dinner table, saying prayers and hearing her say, "Father, Son, Holy Spirit."  And shouting, "AMEN!"  My big girl making me proud.

Saying mealtime prayer.  

Oh Piper girl, you frustrate me and challenge me every day.  But dammit, you are by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I love you with every ounce of my being.